a little letter

dear adam:

hey there brother! so, as you know, i had my baby. he's amazingly beautiful. i'm jealous that you got to know him before i ever did. you're pretty lucky. and he's lucky. he got to know you. i look at that perfect baby and i get scared. i get afraid that the world is going to get him just like it got you. i hope you'll watch over him. help him. keep the world away from him. i'm not as strong as mom is and i can't... just... can't. so be there. i wish you were here to hold him. and kiss him. and love him. i miss you.
love you,

emily