is it bad that i cry when i read my own posts?
i do.
i can't help it.
that feeling just comes back with out even being invited.
(go away you mean feeling you)
(go away you mean feeling you)
i really should try to look at the bright side of things.
he's up there probably telling all the sibs future
children about how silly we all are.
he probably isn't even sad at all.
and he probably feels like hardly anytime has passed since the last time
i hugged him.
even though it feels
so. long.
and now that its nearly may...
its that month.
the one where i got that phone call that changed everything.
will it get better after this month?
i hope so.
until then, i'll put on a happy face and maybe.
just maybe.
the tears won't come too often
:( I'm so sorry that you are feeling sad. What you are feeling is absolutely normal, though, and you are definitely not a "baby" for feeling it. I think I'd be way more worried if you *didn't* feel it. Sending so many virtual hugs your way, and praying for strength for you to get through May with as much inner calm as possible. I love you!
ReplyDeleteEm - always have you and your family in my prayers. take it one day at a time and as many tears as you need.
ReplyDeletei cry at your posts too, they are so tender and you bless us with the memories.
love you!!
Sounds like you're going through a really tough time right now. I'm sending lots of good thoughts your way too. And, by the way, I LOVE reading your blog. Since we are so many years apart, I never got to know you that well growing up; so, I am so glad to get to know you better now (even if it is through the internet!). Take care of yourself. xxxooo
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